Saturday, December 28, 2013

MIX - HDT : Happiness Dementia Therapy

What exactly is a trauma? How do they affect us? How do we heal from our traumas? The DSM-IV tends to have one believe that a trauma is limited to childhood abuse, the loss of a loved one, or gruesome experiences in combat, but Freud insisted that everyone is traumatized simply by the process of being born, and based the much of his studies on repression on this idea. I lean more towards Freud's perspective, and feel that we all have been traumatized at one point in our lives. What matters most in determining how these injuries will cripple us depends on the amount of love and nurturing we are given throughout the era of such experiences. For some a lack of such love itself is enough to be trauma, trapping one in a lifetime of inadequacy or dim self-esteem.

There is also great debate on how to heal these wounds - wounds that for some are too sensitive to even be acknowledged, nevertheless treated. I have my own theories, though they are probably not new ones. One of them is that a victim will remain a victim until there is vengeance, if not direct, then at least some kind of non-destructive catharsis in which we transcend the force or forces which bind us, we confront the ghosts that haunt us, head on, and this is a necessary initial step to the process of repair.

But before that, comes the second step and that is the step of empathy and understanding. If, for example, we have been beaten or molested as children, psychologically even, or have been stolen from, we must learn the motives behind our perpetrators, understand the great chain of cause and effect that exists in the grand chronological interpersonal scheme between us all. People are not evil, or in other words, individuals do not have a primary desire to hurt others, barring the few psychopathic exceptions. Rather, all people are products of there environments, and the desire to hurt others is a secondary effect of a primary cause, which is to cope, in destructive ways.This step is critical, lest we become perpetrators ourselves, and continue to live out the follies of our misfortunes into the misfortunes of others.

We must re-experience hell, so to speak, but with a critical and open mind, so to relive these things without the guilt of naivety. Then, once we have done this truly difficult and painful task, will we be able to move on. Once this painful page has been read, we can close the old book and begin our lives on the blank pages of a new one, and while we will carry the thorn of wisdom and chronic confrontation buried deep in our being,  the victory is anything but Pyrrhic, as this ailment is is much less painful than the thorn of guilt and ignorance. Lastly then when are finally able to tread forward we will do so truly on new ground, not on the trodden comforts of the past, which are, more often than not, lies and projections, illusory, ultimately hindrances. This new chapter will be an era of freedom, and as we live its meta-narrative, we can learn, we can empathize, and we can even find solace and security, and control to some degree what is written.

01) Swans - Jane Mary, Cry One Tear
02) Backworld - Season of Sacrifice
03) Waylon Jennings - Are You Sure Hank Done It This Way?
04) Sorrow - Emptyness
05) Conspiracy of Silence - Innocent
06) Warren Zevon - Sentimental Hygiene
07) Black Hearted Brother - Got Your Love
08) Martha + The Muffins - Rhythm of Life
09) David Wise - Aquatic Ambiance
10) Sea Stories - Laughing Boy
11) Brian - Right Through Tuesday
12) Gayna Rose Madder - Ties
13) In Embrace - This Brilliant Evening
14) Nunzio Fattini - Floor
15) Amor De Dias - Jean's Waving
16) The Apartments - On Every Corner
17) John Cunningham - Spit and Polish
18) Spell - Free Now to Roam
19) Akira Yamaoka - Promise Reprise
20) Sun Kil Moon + Jimmy Lavelle - By the Time That I Awoke
21) The Radio Dept. - Closing Scene
22) Pure Bathing Culture - Scotty
23) Lil Ugly Mane - Last Breath (Outroduction)


Wednesday, May 22, 2013

ALPHABET EMOTIONAL SOUND JOURNEY - LSD LP : Lifted Slightly Different But Lower and Lesser Than Yesterday

01)   Lizzy mercier Descloux – Morning High
02)   Logic System – Unit
03)   League of Nations – Thin Ice Door
04)   Love & Rockets – Youth
05)   Love – Orange Skies
06)   Lee Hazlewood – Dark in My Heart
07)   Lio – Amoureux Solitaires
08)   Louis Phillippe – She Means Everything to Me
09)   Levitation – Cloud Shine
10)   .L.W.H. – All In Your Hands (ft. Main Attrakionz)
11)   Laurie Spiegel – Old Wave
12)   Linda Perhacs – Paralleograms
13)   Lloyd Cole & Roedelius – Pastoral
14)   Lil B – Can’t See B
15)   The Legendary Jim Ruiz Group – Last Time
16)   The Lucy Show – New Message (Basement Demo)
17)   Legendary Pink Dots – Voices
18)   Lloyd Cole and the Commotions – Brand New Friend
19)   Lou Reed – Tell it to Your Heart
20)   Lanterna – Brooklyn
21)    LN – Brightly Over the Sea
22)  Lush – For Love
23)   Lucrecia Dalt - Conversa
24)   Lisa Germano – Phantom Love
25)   Low – Sunflower
26)   Luna – Lost in Space
27)   Lil Kim – Not Tonight


Monday, May 20, 2013

ALPHABET MIX - E-Gon Schiele's Cracked, Black E-geaux Trax For Shootin' Smack and Smoochin' Eunuchs in the Back of a Newly Waxed 'Lac...or Somethin' Like That

01)   The Ex – At the Gate
02)   Eurythmics – Never Gonna Cry Again
03)   Emtidi – Love Time Rain
04)   Echo & the Bunnymen – Fuel
05)   ESG – Hold Me Right
06)   Elvis Costello & the Attractions – Big Sister’s Clothes / Stand Down Margaret
07)   Erik Satie – Six Gnossiennes IV (Lent)
08)   The English Beat – I Confess
09)   Everything But the Girl – Talk to Me Like the Sea
10)   Elite Gymnastics – O M A M O R I
11)   Emancipator – Natural Cause
12)   Earl Brutus – On Me Not In Me
13)   Eno, Moebius, & Roedelius – Tzima N Arki
14)   Ellen Allien & Apparat – Do Not Break
15)   Erlend Oye – Prego Amore
16)   Erykah Badu – Bump It
17)   Electronic – Visit Me
18)   The Embassy – Flipside of a Memory
19)   Even As We Speak – Swimming Song
20)   East Village – Strawberry Window
21)   Easy – Shake a Memory


Friday, May 17, 2013

ALPHABET MIX - QU-incy Has a Few QU-ick QU-estions About the QU-adratic U-nits of U-ranus, Can Anyone Help Him?

01)      Unlimited Dream – No Headaches
02)      U96 – Come 2gether
03)      Underworld – M.E.
04)      U-Ji – Zillion (Melodic Trance OC Remix)
05)      Uku Kuut – Visions of Estonia (Demo)
06)       Ultravox   - Alles Klar
07)      Ulrich Schnauss – On My Own
08)      Q Lazzarus – Goodbye Horses (Extended Version)
09)      Uakti – Mapa
10)   UB40 – Don’t Break My Heart (12” Version)
11)   Quando Quango – This Feeling
12)   The Quick – Young Men Drive Fast
13)   UV Pop – No Songs Tomorrow
14)   Units – Passions or Patterns
15)   Quix*o*tic – Heliotrope
16)   Urinals – Hologram
17)   Unwound – Demons Sing Love Songs
18)   U2 – An Cat Dubh / Into the Heart (Live at Red Rocks Amphiteatre)
19)   Undertones – You’re Welcome
20)   Ups & Downs – In the Shadows
21)   Ultra Vivid Scene – Mercy Seat